Sunday, May 23, 2010

Growing Up

I am so not a fan of this getting old business! Once it starts it sure never stops or even takes a breather. This weekend, I really feel like life is wizing by and we're all getting old! One of my closest friends got married on Saturday, she's the first and most definantly not the last. It was a beautiful wedding, perfect actually. But she all went and got a husband, which means she can't be a kid anymore. My boyfriend just turned 22, that's old too! When I started at SUU I was supposed to graduate when I'm 22, and now he's 22, that's old! And I only have a few months of being an age that starts with the number one left... and it's freaky! I mean granted growing up is a good thing, but seriously does it ever stop? There are days when I want to curl up on the couch early on a Saturday morning with a bowl of sugary cereal and the good 'ol Saturday morning cartoons. But those cartoons don't even exist anymore, that's how old I'm getting. All the freedom is cool and all, I mean I love living on my own, and working full time. But some days I just want to play in the dirt and be a kid again. And before I know it All my friends and I will be married... even my friends on missions! Like seriously I'm going to blink and boom we'll all be living in our "happily ever afters."

I guess it's just an odd realization I've been having as of late. Life changes so quickly, people come and go quickly as well. Change never stops, and usually the things you want least to change are what change the most. But change brings growth, which is good because when something stops growing it dies. I guess it's time to get over my control issues and learn to embrace the change that the tides of life are constantly bringing to my toes on beach of existence.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

When Things Go Great!

It never ceases to amaze me. When bad things happen they just don't stop happening bad thing after bad thing. It's a cycle that doesn't stop untill something good happens. Then those good things just keep coming. And you feel like your on top of the world and can do anything and be anything.

I'm finally in the good side of the cycle. It's amazing the change, it's amazing the good that comes from life that we so easily forget about during the bad times. Life is worth while and life is good. Good things come to those who wait, and those who weather on through the bad. Good things come! :-)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

What i've been writing lately.

Here's a sample of something i've been working on lately.

She was battered, bruised, and broken.
He was afraid. He was self destructive. He was broken too.
They both were alone.
She had been left…
He did the leaving.
They’re both alone.
Alone: to the exclusion of all others or all else.
Synonyms: abandoned, companionless, deserted, detached, isolated, only, unaccompanied.
Alone
She had been alone for years.
So had he.
Her relationship ended, weeks ago.
He never had one.
Her name is Melissa.
His is Troy.
Together, they are alone.

Melissa walked out of the Women’s Shelter with thirty dollars in her pocket, and a prayer that it would all work out. She looked left, than right, taking in the city once again and wondering which way to go. She looked up, and then down. Something shiny on the ground caught her eye. It was a penny, heads up. Picking it up she said to herself “heads to go right, tails to go left.” The penny sparkled as it came tumbling down. With a quiet thump it landed on her hand, looking down tails glared up at her. With one last look to the right she turned at went left. “No need to tempt fate today.” She quietly mumbled to herself as she followed the penny’s direction.

The city looked different, somehow more vibrant than it was just a few weeks ago. But then again, Melissa was supposedly, as her therapist had told her, a new person. Being a new person means having new eyes, right?

The goals for the day were plain and simple:
1. Find a job
2. Find something to eat
3. Find somewhere warm to sleep tonight

Find: to locate, attain, or obtain by search or effort.
Synonyms: acquisition, come across, discover, happen upon, locate, meet, recognize.
Find, find, find. That was all Melissa ever did these days. Finding herself, finding a job, finding food. Find, find, find. She was sick of finding and wanted to be found. Being found would mean no more looking, no more waiting, and no more fear.

The side walk stretched on continuously, almost never ending. Shop after shop she passed, never finding what she wanted. Then something off to the side caught her eye. It was a small run down building just like all the rest on the street, but it was different. It was brightly colored and had strange potted plants on the stoop. As she walked closer she could feel music coming from the building, not hear it, but feel it.
Feel: to have a sensation of something, other than by sight, hearing, taste, or smell.
Synonyms: acknowledge, be aware of, be impressed, comprehend, enjoy, have vibes, perceive, sense.
The music resonated throughout her body before she could even make out what was playing. The gentle vibrations brought a smile to her face as she remembered how much she once loved music, but that was before, this was now.

She began to walk past the building and a sign loomed over her. Giddy’s Music: Where Mind Meets Music. She was fascinated by it “where mind meets music… what could that possible mean?” She thought to herself. She continued to walk past the building and a big red sign caught her eye, “HELP WANTED.” She paused outside of the door, just staring at the sign. The penny weighing heavy in her pocket, had it really been right? She debated in her mind, her hand on the door just waiting to pull the handle.

The inside of the Giddy’s Music was darker, darker than Melissa expected. But it wasn’t a scary dark, it was almost peaceful. Loud exciting music filled her ears, it was pleasant and felt good being there. She took one sweeping look around, taking in all of the many things that made up Giddy’s Music. There were aisles of dusty cd racks filled to overflowing with music. The carpet was purple with large brown stains, questionable in their origin. The cash register was old, and didn’t look electronic at all, it was also surrounded by more curious plants that matched the ones outside the door. The store seemed empty. But to Melissas surprise, it wasn’t.

“I don’t care!” yelled a loud spirited female voice. “They in no way are as you put it, a modern day Beetles.” This last part was filled with a disgust Melissa had never heard before.
“You old fool!” A male voice yelled just as loudly. “You have to learn to embrace the new stuff, you can’t always live in the past!”

“Oh! But in music I can! Life, you’re right, I can’t live in the past, but music, oh I can live in the past! The best is from the past.”

“No! The best is not from the past, the best is happening right now!”

“What’s happening right now is garbage! Created from the past!”

“You’re never going to be able to sell this stuff if you think its garbage, isn’t that bad for business? Huh?”

“That’s why I plan on hiring someone, someone who can be in touch with the present while I spend my time in the past. See it’s the perfect plan!”

“Giddy, ever sense you opened this place no one but you has worked here. Do you really think you could handle an employee?”

“Yes! You idiot I can handle and employee, now buy something or get out!” Giddy stomped off leaving the guy she was arguing with confused.

“An employee? This is going to be fun!” He said to himself as he put on head phones at one of the listening stations.

Melissa was a little weary to inquire about the job after hearing the heated debate that had just occurred. But, she knew it had to be done. A flip of the coin had brought her here and there was no stopping fate. She walked toward the front register where Giddy was counting some bills. Giddy looked up and smiled. “How can I help you?”

“My name’s Melissa and I just saw your help wanted sign, and was wondering if I could apply for the job.” Melissa said trying to remember how to be confident.

“Of course you can! Oh wait… I don’t have any applications… hmmm...” She trailed off while looking through piles of stuff. “Here! Write your name and number here… and we’ll have an interview, um, right now? How does that sound?”

“That sounds great” Melissa said as she wrote down her name then she paused “I don’t exactly have a phone number right now”

“That’s okay! How about an address?”

“Yeah about that…”

Giddy’s face dropped, “Oh you poor thing! What happened?”

“I don’t really want to talk about it right now, but I’m on the road to making things better.”

“Oh that’s good! Well if you want to come into the back I guess we’ll start our little interview.”

“Sounds great!” Melissa said as she followed Giddy through a curtain that lead to a dark back room. There was a crash and then a light flipped on.

“Sorry, I always miss that darned switch, but I always find it, eventually.” The back room was clean, surprisingly clean comparative to the rest of the store. Nothing was out of place it seemed. Cd’s were stacked in perfectly square piles. The floors were a very bright white linoleum the walls were painted with an intricate mural that wasn’t finished but was amazing none the less.
“What’s the mural for?”

“Oh, you’ll see my dear, you’ll see.” She walked to a door and opened it up and it lead to a very small office with a desk a chair and a filing cabinet, no room for anything else. She pulled out a folding chair from behind the cabinet and set it up and motioned for Melissa to sit down. As Melissa sat down the folding chair let out a groan, and shook a little. She wasn’t sure if it could hold her up for more than a mere five minutes, but she held her breath and let herself relax into the chair as it groaned yet again. Giddy took a deep breath, pulled out a ratty notebook and wrote MELISSA on the top of clean page in beautiful script. “Ok, well let’s get started… Hmmm… Oh, I don’t have any questions prepared. Sorry, you’re the first person to apply for this job… the signs been up for weeks.” Fate came into Melissa’s mind and she felt a chill run up her spine. “Well lets start with why you’re here. Why are you Melissa applying for this job?”
Melissa wondered if she should tell her the truth about her situation or just make up some happy feel good answer.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Wow it's been a long time

So I decided it's high time I get back into the habit of blogging. Even if no body reads it!



So hmmm... It's been a very very eventful past little while! I changed my major! It's not Graphic Design not History Education (Shudder at the thought)



I'm currently taking my very first Art class it's very exciting Although exhausthing sense it is Summer semester I sit in class for 3 hours a day. But It's fun, and i'm learning alot!



I have new roommates now! It's always an adventure adjusting to living with new people. But I like it! Although i can't wait to move back into my old apartment in the Fall!



So besides that... I dont' really have anything to say right now. Except that i've discovered that I really really don't like wearing shoes. They're so not fun. Being barefoot rules! It allows your feet to be free! I mean come on even Pippy Longstocking wanted her feet to be free. Shouldn't we all?

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Web 2.0 - What does it really mean?

This is a video about the changing of the development of the World Wide Web

This video is about how the web is changing. How it used to be something that was hard for all people to access, for all people to create. HTML is complicated not everyone knows the language. This video shows how the development of web pages has changed, how simple it is for every person to post something to the World Wide Web, just like I'm doing right now, without using HTML language at all.

I'm hitting enter, and the space is there with out the use of a paragraph break or line break. The web is changing, and as it changes we must all learn how to handle it and use it appropriately.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Windmills

So I have a facination. I'm facinated by windmills, I don't know but I just love them!



There's just something about them that I love. My town recently got nine windmills up in the canyon. They've been operational for three months! I love watching them spin, especially at night! Something about them just facinates me!



These are the kind of windmills we have, they are huge! i've never seen anything like them before!

So that is my unexplained facination. I will always love them!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

The story I could write

There is a picture in the Braithwaite Gallery, it's black and white and is a picture of a mother and her two children sitting in a bus terminal. The story I could write from this is as follows:

It's told from the oldest little girls perspective. She and her mother have spent a long day adventuring through the city. Her mother has a large manilla envelope that she has been carrying around all day. They are now waiting in the bus terminal for her fathers bus to arrive, he's been gone for a couple of weeks, all of is stuff is gone from their house and the little girl misses his smell. What the little girl doesn't understand or know is that her parents are getting a divorce and in the manilla envelope is her parents divorce papers. Her daddy will arrive and she will run to him and spend a few minutes talking to him, then her mother will appear and hand her dad the envelope. Her dad will ask the mom if the neighbors still think he's on a business trip, because they are trying to hide to divorce. The dad will leave and the little girl will still not quite understand.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Creative Writing Randomness

The topic I have picked to be my project, is Spencers Letter Problem.

I picked this project becase a couple of people initialed by it during our group activity and I really like this story!

This would be a good project for me because i'm always stuck helping Spencer do things from dealing with his girl problems to hleping him apply for jobs. I also think ti would make a good story because hi's an almost 19 year old who didn't know wo to address and send a letter.

Incorporating my random words:

Knob Kernie: I will want to hit Spencer over the head with a knob kernie!

Ecumenism: Spencer will seek punctuation advice for his letter for a christan church denomination that has been ecumenismized.

illiterate: We belive that Spencer may be illeterate beacuse he's never read a book and didn't know how to address a simple letter.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

An Encounter With Batman



I looked out the window while I was in the kitchen, and I saw something quite out of the ordianry. There was Batman, running through the parking lot! It was quite the sight! About half of the complex had their doors open, just watching him run through the parking lot. He would then disapear and then about ten or so minutes later Batman would be back running through the parking lot.

Then Batman just stoped coming around, and we were all sad! How could we feel safe without Batman running through our parking lot? Then the amazing happened, we were sitting watching a movie when we hear somone run up our metal front porch, and low and behold! It's Batman to the rescue! He utters a sentance in his deep dark Batmanny voice.

"You shouldn't leave this open, it's a danger" he said as he closed our open apartment door.

Yes, Batman kept us from danger, by protecting our apartment complex and looking out for us all! Yay for Batman!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

The Top Five Best Modern Bands

Steel Train:
They are amazing! I absolutly love their album trampoline! They even put on a great live show!



This Day & Age: I just barely bought this cd after trying to get it for over a year! I'm so excited about it, and it's amazing. Very mellow but totally awesome. The lyrics are also very cool!



The Hush Sound: I just love everything about this band! Their second Cd, Like Vines, is my favorite! They have a great upbeat sound and are just fun to listen to! They also but on a great live show!



Sugarcult: This is just an amazing rock band! I love them with all my heart! Their first cd, start static, is by far my favorite but I also love their other two albums they are just an all around good band no doubt about it!



Blue October: They just have an amazing sound and are good to listen to. They music is just amazing rock!

Fashions That Just Bug Me

In todays world there are so many choices about what to wear! You can always look good if you want to, and still be totally original. But there are some fashion choices that i've seen lately that just bug me!

For example those croc shoes. I just think they are the uglyest things ever invented. I just don't understand why someone would want to wear that kind of plastic on their feet!



You know what else bugs me, when people do not understand how to match their clothes! I mean, come on how hard is it to figure out what colors go together and which ones don't?


And another thing, the other day I saw this girl who was about my age and she was dressed like my grandmother! I mean seriously you're in your early early 20's learn how to make yourself look good! Not like my grandmother! Oversized baggy lumpy clothes are just not flatering on anyone! No matter how much you try to think so!


I'm totally for self expression through clothing, but please, remember other people have to look at you too! Nobody wants to see your clevage or your butt crack! Just cover up a little bit and you'll look so much better!

Friday, September 5, 2008

The Best Apple Juice Ever

So today I went to Smiths beacause I was out of things to eat, and you know it's kinda important to eat food every day. Anyways, I decided to try something new! I love Apple juice, I really do it just makes me so happy. So I bought some. I've decided it's the best apple juice I have ever tasted, I mean like seriously! You can actually taste the appleness of it! YUM! I've beend drinking way to much of it though, it's going to be gone way to soon! Seriously if you want some amazing apple jucie you have to get the Simply Apple kind (oh and they have way good lemondae too!)




Well enough about apple jucie.

As I was driving to Walmart today, to get batteries for my camera, I saw the weirdest old guy ever! So he was out jogging, shirtless... it was a little scarey. He had on gray sweatpants you know like any person working out would. I guess these pants were just to big or someting because he was wearing suspenders! Like seriously he was jogging, wearing gray sweatpants no shirt, what looked like dressy shoes and suspenders. I was like what the heck!?!? I guess it's better than him showing off his booty to the world if his pants fell down, but still he looked rediculous! Some peoples fashion choices just astound me sometimes! But that's for another entry!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

My Philosophies on Life

I have a few basic philosophies on life! They help me live the way that I want to and they help to make me happy! Here I'm just going to list a few of them.

Live with out regrets: I always try my hardest to live everyday with out any regrets, granted it's quite the hard thing to accomplish. It always stuns me as to how many things I will regret doing or saying. I firmly believe that you should try your hardest to not have any regrets, and if you do end up regretting something you should get over it as quickly as possible. We should always live our lives out to the fullest so we don't ever end up regretting not doing something. My best friend has a favorite quote and it goes like this, "It's better to regret something that you have done than to regret not doing anything at all." I totally agree with that you've gotta get out there and try new things. That's part of what I've learned in my first weeks of school is how important it is to just let yourself get out there and enjoy life!

Enjoy the rain: It's amazing to me how many people don't like it when it rains! I absolutely love the rain, I mean my blog is titled 'looking at the rain' obviously I love it! I think that every time it rains everyone in the world should embrace it not run away from it! I believe that rain is energizing and will help you clear your mind. We shouldn't run from the rain we should let it 'wash our minds' because if we do it will help us think so much clearer!

Never go a day without music: "Music washes from the soul the dust of everyday life" -- Berthold Auerbach It's so true! Music is an amazing power, it can make you happy our sad. It can give you an entirely new outlook on life. You should listen to music as much as humanly possible, it's an amazing tool that can uplift you and make you just feel better all over. I personally love listening to classical music to help me feel calm and relaxed. Music should be a part of everything, it's that powerful! Try it, if you feel down think of the last time you listened to music, was it a long time ago? If so, listen to something you love it will help. Or maybe you need to change what you're listening to, try something new, new music is amazing, it makes you so happy especially when it's good!

Say "hi" to everyone you meet: It's amazing how much of a difference it makes when you just say hi and smile at people. Sure it makes them feel better, but it also makes you feel so much better! I love walking to class and just looking someone in the eyes and smiling at them, it makes me so happy!

Those are some of my simple philosophies on life, just being a happy person makes such a difference in your life. I think that everyone should form there own philosophies and incorporate them into their everyday lives.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

The Micheal Jackson Fan Next Door

Living in a student housing complex you see many many out of the ordinary things! That's just what happens when you stick a bunch of 20 something year olds together, craziness abounds. Most of it you can just brush off with a simple "oh, that was werid."

But not the weirdness of my neighbor, our apartment living room is directly across from his bedroom window. Trying to keep the electric bill down at twilight we leave the windows open and the AC off. We try our hardest to enjoy our down time after school and homework is all done. Simple enough, right? Not for apartment 16, beacuse we have a dancing Micheal Jackson fan for an across the parking lot neighbor. I little Micheal Jackson music is just fine, I honestly don't mind it in the least bit. No it's when you look out the window and not only do you see his naked lady silloet but you also see him busting a move to his full blast music. It's quite the sight, espeically beacuse doesn't have quite the same quaily of dance moves as Micheal Jackson. Yes our neighbor is a Micheal Jackson fan, and we have to watch him dance. I wonder what else will go down in the parking lot of our apartment complex.

Looking at the Rain

So I just found out that Gordon Lightfoot wrote a song called Looking at the Rain. So I thought i'd share it, beacuse it's actually quite the good song! (: And I feel all cool now too!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0bydrEuuvD8

Looking at the Rain
Gordon Lightfoot

Looking at the rain
Feeling the pain
Of love lost running though
My brain
Looking at the wind
Watching it spin
The leaves along the street
You win Waiting for a line to fall
Telling you it's all a big mistake
Looking at a face
So out of place
Inside that picture frame
Of lace
Looking at the wall
Wishing you'd call
And tell me you're OK
That's all
Wishing this was all a dream
And I'd find you sleeping when I wake Looking at the trees
So ill at ease
From sleep that will not come
That's me
Looking at the dawn
Knowing it's wrong
Still thinking of your love
That's gone
Wishing this was all a dream
And I'd find you sleeping when I wake
Looking at the rain
Feeling the pain
Of love lost running though
My brain
Looking at the wind
Watching it spin
The leaves along the street
You win
Waiting for a line to fall
Telling you it's all a big mistake
But the words won't come
I know I'd feel the same
Looking at the rain

Once

If I had to say what one movie I beleive everyone needs to see I would have to say the movie Once. It's a beautiful indie film. With musicians as the actors so the music is amazing beacuse they actually know what they're doing instead of if it was actors trying to play musicians.

Let imbd.com stell you a little bit more about this amazing movie:

"An (unnamed) Guy is a Dublin guitarist/singer-songwriter who makes a living by fixing vacuum cleaners in his Dad's Hoover repair shop by day, and singing and playing for money on the Dublin streets by night. An (unnamed) Girl is a Czech who plays piano when she gets a chance, and does odd jobs by day and takes care of her mom and her daughter by night. Guy meets Girl, and they get to know each other as the Girl helps the Guy to put together a demo disc that he can take to London in hope of landing a music contract. During the same several day period, the Guy and the Girl work through their past loves, and reveal their budding love for one another, through their songs." Written by Charles Delaroix Taken from http://www.imdb.com

Watch this movie and you'll love every minute of it! It's a beautiful story that makes you feel a little more conncected to the world around you. I think it's one of the most inspiring movies i've seen in a long time. It will teach you about friendship and life.



Although this is an amazing movie, my favorite part is the music! I listen to the soundtrack over and over agian and I love every minute of it! Once you see you the movie Once you will understand how amazing the songs that were written for the movie are! My favorite is the song Falling Slowly.

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody

-- Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova

Some of My Favorite Sights in Washington, D.C.

In November of 2007 I traveled to Washington, D.C. these are some of my favorite sights:



We travelled to Shaw, a community just out side of the D.C. area. It's a predominately African American community. This community has some amazing sights. The houses are all brightly colored, and they have basements! This is a playground we stumbled across, I thought it was so awesome! I love the mural in the background! It really looked like (to some extent) the houses we saw while we were walking around, a great place for an adventure!



Under the streets of Washington, D.C. there are tunnels. This is a picture from the tunnel leading from the House of Representatives Office building to the Capital building. The photographs on the wall are selected by each Representative, they are selected from the reflections winners in each state! So it's all student art work, it's quite fun to look at!





The FDR memorial is the only completely handicap accessible monument in Washington, D.C. It's a very pretty monument, complete with four rooms, one for each of FDR's terms of office. There is braille on the walls so that even those with sight impairments can enjoy the beautiful monument.



The Jefferson memorial is a definite must see! It's so beautiful! Right on the edge of the Potomac river. Jefferson stands magnificently in the center surround by some of this most famous sayings. On the lower level of the monument is a visitors center that will help you learn more about and appreciate the great man Thomas Jefferson was.



The Capital building as seen from the top of the Washington Monument. If you ever get a chance to visit Washington, D.C. defiantly wake up early and get tickets to go to the top of the Washington Monument, it doesn't cost you anything, you just have to have that ticket and they go fast so get yours as early as possible! It's so worth it!

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Obviously this is no where near all the amazing things you can do in Washington, D.C. It's an amazing city! There is so much to see there and all of it will help you appreciate America just a little bit more. Some more places I suggest seeing are, The Lincoln Monument, The WWII memorial, along with the Korean war and Vietnam war memorials, see both sides of the white house, and ride the metro! Visit as many Smithsonians as you possibly can, walk down the mall at night, it's absolutely breath taking! Be sure to take the time to enjoy the culture of the city.